Perasaan jam 12.59

I am supposed to read my notes for tomorrow tapi hampeh,

after iron baju sambil pikir sth yang merepek-repek,

and sapu bilik after membebel dalam hati,

I feel like writing this post.

Last weekend (considering sekarang da jam 1 am),

afi keluar pergi Timesquare dengan Hawa, my beloved housemate.

Tujuan: temankan beliau pergi Acer Center and beli barang for Pontian Health Carnival.

Well, waktu pergi sana I met someone yang buat afi tulis post ni.

At first, I cant even recognize him.

eh, tipu. Recognize la jugak

but I barely remember his name.

confuse. So I decided to remain silent.

Last last dia yang tegur afi dulu and I was moved by his word to his so-cantik-pakaitudung-gediksikitsikit woman.

"She's my past" that was his last word yang afi dengar.

My tindakan refleks was, pukul-pukul dinding elevator sambil gigit handbag.

Ok, I know. Macam orang desperate kan?

Ergh!

Actually afi agak tak sangka social life dia macam tu.

well, he's kinda ok sebab perempuan tu pakai tudung,

but please, there should be some boundaries.

Apa hak afi nak komen lebih2?

hehe. entah saya pon tak tau.

Ape-ape jelah.

Babah, I know u will read this post.

I made the right choice right?

Hehe. Please agree with me once. Please..

I was irritated by his statement!

I am his past?

kenapa dia tak cakap je, she is my friend

or she WAS my friend

kenapa she's my past???

kenapa???

I don't know why but I felt like I am a perempuan jahat bila dengar dia cakap macam tu

and seeing his so-cantik-pakaitudung-gediksikitsikit woman senyum ala-ala lebah jumpa madu made me felt even worse!

ergh.

salah saya ke kawan-kawan??

mereka cakap TAK!

anda pula bagaimana?

Nota tangan kiri:

babah, I need disney channel here.

seriously I do.

and please, selagi kakak belum grad,

and if there's any other 'meeting'

tak payah tanya, just play your role.

much comfortable that way.

BUT (ok, there's a but).....!

later if I want u to meet 'someone'

after I found that unlucky 'someone',

just APPROVE him ok?

^_^

wahahaha.

mode 'saya benci handphone'

Comments

Doktor Sakit Puan

Sebab aku perempuan, dan pesakit aku semua nya perempuan. Women only. Exclusive kan? Macam tulah Allah jaga aku, with His own ways. Heyy bukan senang aku nak cool je dengan tittle MO O&G ni. Makan dalam bertahun kot. Sobs. Dari student benci gila subjek O&G, sekarang amekau. Sobs lagi sekali. Being in this department wasn't my choice. Family person macam aku ni akan minta dijauhi dari O&G sumpah tak tipu, tapi nak wat acanerr aku insan terpilih. Lepas kena campak kat sini memang jatuh terduduk, tergolek, terdampar. Sampai sekarang masih cuba buang dendam pada dia yang campak aku kat lubang gelap ni walaupun sebenarnya dah agak agak boleh terima hakikat. Kalau terserempak dengan dia mesti akan terngiang ngiang ayat I resent you Fuhh dia punya dendam tak hengat. Tak pernah aku berdendam macam ni seuumur hidup. Now slowly tengah buang dendam sebab dah boleh terima kenyataan, KOT. Kenapa aku tak suka/ separa benci pada O&G? Sebabnye ...

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Aku dan Lipas.

I had terrible night last night. Siangnya pon agak terible jugakla. Dengan suara garau and muka yang hitam, kepala pusing plus temperature of 38.5 I could barely move. Bedridden. Weehu. And what make it worse? LIPAS. Had 2 scenes with lipas. First was, I found a freaking damn dead cockroach in my mihun tomyam. Imagine: I was like hungry to death and the cafe took like ages to deliver my food. Bila dah sampai I just dug in the food without doing the routine check. Suapan ke dua, I felt something strange about the tomyam. Rasa macam pelik. But keeps on eating cos LAPAR. On my 3rd suapan, I saw something weird floating on the spoon and as I took closer look, I screamed like it was no tomorrow. ADAKAH AKU TELAH MEMAKAN TOMYAM PERASA LIPAS? Omjayyyy!!! Called the cafe and explained the situation to a worker. Dengan pelat indon and bahasa melayu yang kurang mantapnya itu, she kept on asking whether I still kept the lipas I found in her tomyam. Seriously I feel like shouting at her on her f...

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Saiko

I wonder what had gotten into me before when I used to fight so strong just to be in this course. Babah agak tak suka saya amek course ni. Babah cakap, "You'll have no life." and "Once you step in that field, its equal to learn throughout ur whole life". Tapi saya yang dulu tak kesah ngan semua benda yang babah cakap. As long as he still supports me walaupun selalu cakap keburukan amek medic, I keep my head held high. Tak pandang belakang dah. I made my decision and that's it. No turning back. Tapi sekarang saya jadi keliru. Can I do this? Am I fit enough to be a good doctor? Can I diagnose correctly? Can I treat the patient the way I'm taught? Can I be like my lecturers who are super awesome? Can I? Bimbang. Keliru. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Rasa macam tak layak. Tengok semorang dah progress but me? Still kat takuk yang lama. Even worse, dah turun beberapa anak tangga. I tried to talk to my close friends abut this. But no help at all....

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