Past Tense

Still adapting to this mommyhood, still adapting that I have the power to make this little human stop crying 😂 and still adapting to be a good post partum mom in confinement. Damn hard. Susah betul nak tahan nafsu makan. I hope to shed some kgs post delivery and so far I have lost about 10 kg but still not even close to my initial weight 😭 F is in tagging mode so he is working 16hours per day since past 2 weeks. His tagging period will end in another 4 days so I have to bear a little longer so that he can also take care of Lil Z at night time.  I wish to write on Lil Z delivery journey tapi nanti lah dulu. Not in the mood to write long post. Meheheh.  Baby's crying. Roger and out. 

Oh dear lord I miss vacation.  This was when we were almost a week married. Looking back to where we were before, I never thought this guy would be my husband. I knew him as a classmate, and during our first year of med school he was none like this haha. Kepala botak with his loose grey sweater and huge backpack riding motorbike. And then we were group mates for our very first pro exam and I remember him taught me anatomy. He would randomly text me and ask for things we revised previously and sometimes I would text him to ask for things I failed to remember. Believe me, he was like my walking netter 😅 and still are ❤️ I also remember there were times he laughed at me for incidentally doing silly thing like terlanggar cermin kaca sampai benjol dahi. I dont know what got into me that day, but the door seems really, I mean REALLY transparent to me and I just ran into it. Nasib baik tak retak pintu itu sobs. And he was one of the witnesses. Since then onwards, he would walk before me and

Started my maternity leave last few weeks. Tengah duk sibuk up entry kawen taun lepas and layan kan contractions yang mcm biskut chipsmore, akhirnya lahirlah our little bundle of joy, baby Z.  Macam ni rupanya perasaan jadi ibu. Still adapting.  One thing that is very challenging now is to stay bed ridden. Hari hari kena marah dengan mama sebab buat itu ini instead of baring. Well, I am active liddat mom, *flips hair, lol :P*. Tapi lepas dah buat keje tu memang sakit situ sini la pastu mengadu kat mama jugak haha. Nasib mama adalah nenek yang penyabar, kalau tak ade je yang kena hempuk dengan nenek moden itu.  My dear baby Z,  Ibu prays that you will be the reason for us to enter jannah.  Jadi anak soleh, mulia akhlak, sempurna iman, berilmu dan yang paling penting, jadi manusia yang bertanggungjawab dan berani menegakkan kebenaran sesuai dengan nama yang ibu babah bagi untuk kamu. Ibu babah love you so very much, little sugar.