Past Tense

Semorang ada bahagia masing masing.  Ada yang bahagia ada duit banyak,  ada yang bahagia ada rumah banyak and boleh sewakan kat orang,  ada orang bahagia bila ada kereta besar, bini lawa, boleh travel keliling dunia. Bahagia aku, bila boleh spend masa dengan anak anak.  Ada yang kata perempuan kalau dah kerja tak betah duduk rumah jaga anak, tapi aku rasa aku berbeza. Memang lah kadang kadang bertukar jadi mak ko ijo bila anak buat perangai, tapi bila tak dapat jumpa, peluk, cium, dengar nafas waktu tidur, mandikan, basuh berak, berjaga tengah malam sebab tetiba mood dia nak main bola pukul 1 pagi, aku memang boleh jadi separuh gila. Bila anak jauh, rasa diri macam depresi. Nak bangkit pon malas. Macam meroyan pon ada. Tetiba air mata menitik. Sejak ada anak, I've tasted it all. Perasaan tinggal anak lepas pantang,  mak jagakan anak,  hantar anak nursery,  anak ikut nenek outstation,  terpaksa pjj dengan anak....

Since few people asked me what is it about that makcik so here it goes. To those who really know me must be in shock to learn I hired a maid. I am an OCD trait woman, so everything must go according to my criteria. How on earth can I handle a maid kan. And maybe thats the reason she left haha. Main reason for us hiring her was because we have 2 boys already. Maybe we were overwhelmed of that fact. 2 boys. Macam mana nak handle? What if one of us oncall, so only one of us will be managing the boys alone?   The every morning drama before school is now doubled??   We couldn't find any daycare for below 2yo.  No intake towards the end of the year. So for that, I asked around about getting one, the risks and precautions I have to take. Cut story short, we were so happy to have her working for us, and honestly I couldn't find any flaws in her work. I watched her took care of zufar, I trained her to do house chores my way because hers was too .. hm su...

I deserve a holiday. Yes you hear me right, a holiday. Like a vacation to some quiet and nice place. Just me and my little family. It would be a bless to not have to deal with any tantrums. Just my boys being on their best behaviour. And a nice massage to relieve the soreness I've been having. Ahh.. Hot bath, I need those so badly. Candle light dinner with great food and it definitely will taste better if I manage to enjoy the savoury taste peacefully. Watching the boys running by the sea, making sea castle before I destroyed them with 3 buckets of sand and 1 bucket of water. Enjoying the warm breeze while drinking cold beverage. Swaying on a swing would be great too. Have a long decent chat with my husband, making future plans, snuggle and cuddle. Add in some romance. Imagining this make me so happy already I can't wait to have one.  Need to save money on a nice trip definitely because right now, I feel like a walking zombie. - Posted using BlogPres...

Ada yang minta tulis kisah berpantang di blog, maka terjadilah entri ini walaupun lambat dan diri ku sudah seminggu habis pantang. Biasalah mak anak dua memang macam ni, kalau boleh satu hari tu nak ada 10 jam je biar cepat sikit dorang besar. Nampak macam remeh kan, anak dua JE, ada maid pulak tu, so should be no problem la kan. Heheh. Cakap pandang pandang kak. Kalau tak pernah cuba atau alami, baik diam sebelum perkataan yang keluar dari mulut kau mengubah takdir hidup kau. Giteww. Kahkah. S o how was it at home with them? My daily routine goes almost like this everyday; woke up at -- whenever my little one decided to. Klau dia rasa nak bangun pkl 6, maka my day starts at 6. Kalau dia decides to wake up at 8 then I got some extra sleep. had breakfast; after I bf the baby while layan-ing the toddler tengah panjat kerusi then berkuak lentang atas meja. Kadang kadang kak ida (my maid) will take him for morning walk so that I can eat peacefully but most of the time it ended...

So....Normal ke celah tingkap? Soalan biasa bila orang tau kita dah beranak. Kadang kadang diorang ni takde pon tanya ibu ok ke anak sihat ke, yang dia sibuk nak tau method ape kau keluarkan anak tu, 😂 Pastu, ulasan seterusnya boleh jadi mencabar kepada emosi ibu ibu yang dah bersalin ni. Kalau yang bersalin sizer biasanya berbunyi begini - ha punggung kecik la tu anak tak lepas. Nasib baik punggung aku besar. Ooo anak kau keluar kot punggung? - Ni mesti sebab tak pandai teran ni. Pergi kelas antenatal x? Kalau pergi memang konfem beranak normal eh? - Anak besar sangat la tu. Dulu masa mengandung suka makan ais ke? Oh mungkin makan ais anak jadi kembang sebab dia pon sama kunyah ais dalam perut. 🤣 Kalau beranak normal pulak - Ha bolehla beranak lagi taun depan. Kalau beranak normal takpe anak rapat rapat. Kau ingat aku kilang buat anak? - Biasa kalau beranak normal ni cepat recover. Oh ye eh? Habistu kalau beranak normal ni dia sejenis yang cepat sembuh sebab mengandung 9 hari je eh?...

Ni bukan kisah novel cinta macam "Hero Puan Snow White" or "Suamiku Seorang Medical Officer", ni kisah benar suka duka perjalanan aku laki bini nak mencari maid untuk jaga anak anak waktu kami keluar mencari sesuap nasi. Sejak mula pregnantkan ZR lagi aku memang dah fikir pasal benda ni. Mula mula fikir jelaa kan tapi as perut makin memboyot, keseriusan tu dah perlu ada. At first we were at ease jugak sebab masa tu tak dapat placement lagi. So duk fikir nak hantar taska sama dengan ZH. Even when the first result were announced and F was assigned to Pahang, we were not that worried because F appealed for placement at Terengganu and we were quite confident that it would be granted considering I was in 3rd trimester. Little did we know, berbekalkan alasan sebegitu, akhirnya dengan aku skali kena heret placement di Pahang. Yeaay to us. Lol. Jadinya menggelabahlah dua orang hamba Allah memikirkan nasib si anak sulung dan bayi dalam kandungan. Sungguh, hati aku berat sebe...

Done with housemanship Alhamdulillah. Now focus on being a wife and a mom. Hari hari berdua dengan ZH were tiring. Dah tak tahu nak buat aktiviti ape. Sebabnye budak ni kan lelaki, selagi mata dia celik, kau memang tak kan nampak dia duduk diam kecuali time dia teran berak. Selebihnya berlari kesana kemari. Sambil makan pon boleh berlari keanak anakan. Alhamdulillah for healthy, strong, active and cheeky boy. Boy sorang lagi dalam peyut ni tak tahulah macam mana. Gaya macam abang tu dah ade dah sejak dalam kandungan lagi. Mohon bertabahlah suami melayan ye. Ibu dah beranak babah pulak melayan muahaha. So this nesting instinct had been haunting me since we moved to Pahang. But due to lack of time, and weekend pahang dan terengganu adalah berbeza so it was hard for me to unbox things, prepare nursery for ZR (this is so sad) and do house deco. Sekarang bila ada masa, adalah tidak larat pula. Perut dah kedepan sangat, asyik mengah tambah tambah bulan puasa, so 1 box per day je mampu bua...