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2 perasaan.

Pindah rumah adalah sangat memenatkan dan meletihkan dan segala perkataan yang sewaktu dengannya. Sangat  geram dengan pakcik pakcik yang babah BAYAR ntuk angkut segala barang itu. Hee. Kalau ikutkan hati mau je afi cakap ngan pakcik pakcik muda lagi kuat tapi tidak gentlemen tersebut untuk berambus dari pandangan mata afi sebelum afi balun dengan penyapu. Geram tahu! Takpelah. Memandailah dia jawab kat akhirat besok. Duitnye amek tapi kerja tak buat. Hampeh.
Mimimo mouse

Dan setelah pelbagai rintangan dan cabaran terpaksa dihadapi, akhirnya afi dapat jumpa tokki harini. Sobs. :'( Mulamula sampai kat rumah tokki, I saw him sleeping. Waktu tu hati rasa sakit sesangat taktau kenapa. I was like, stunned when I saw tokki's pale face and he was sleeping soundly. Waktu tu afi nampak air muka tokki lain dari biasa. Sangat lain. And I know that look. I'd seen that before. Sobs. Funny thing was, I kinda focus on the sounds that came out from his room, trying to confirm that he was still breathing. I know I sound stupid but that was what I did for the first 30 minutes I was there. Lepas dengar tokki batuk barulah rasa lega. I don't know why sepanjang masa kat sana afi rasa sedih. PMS agaknye. Haih.

One thing yang buat empangan air mata afi pecah was after I had this conversation with tokki

Tokki: kakak habis belajar bila?
afi: lebih kurang 4 tahun lagi kot, insyaAllah
tokki: hmm. Lambat lagi tu. Tokki da mati kot time tu

Rasa macam terkena kejutan letrik. Ya Allah, panjangkan umur tokki..
...but if death is the best for him afi redha.. sobs.
Leaf
Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Comments

  1. jgn selalu pikir bukan2.. pesanan ikhlas dari asip

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  2. sabar ye, be strong
    InsyaAllah everything will be fine.
    hope tokki sehat sentiasa. amin.

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  3. sabar dan tawakal..

    http://www.hindilyrics.net/translation-Andaz-%281949%29/Zindagi-Ek-Safar.html

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  4. sayyid- thanks :). btw, lagu tu best! haha

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  5. kuatkn hti n sama2 kita doa agar tokki sempat melihat kjayaan kk suatu ari nt..be strong n study smart dear..chaiyokk2...!!!

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  6. ibu iman- thanks m.su! :D doamu ku perlu :))

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