Everyone has gone to deep sleep except for me. Am sleepy but insomniac. Trying to reach babah's cellphone but I think he's sleeping also. Babah must be really tired for driving alone. All this while mama ai yang setia slalu ikut babah pegi outstation so they kinda take turns to drive. But today, I mean this time mama needs to be at home for there's so much things that need to be settled before we move out and plus, I have the JPJ test this tuesday. Pray for my success dear friends. I'm dying for that piece of paper which people used to call a DRIVING LICENCE. Hurm. God I miss babah already. Why does he needs to be in KL this week?? Why not next week? Hergh. Benci benci.
I wonder what had gotten into me before when I used to fight so strong just to be in this course. Babah agak tak suka saya amek course ni. Babah cakap, "You'll have no life." and "Once you step in that field, its equal to learn throughout ur whole life". Tapi saya yang dulu tak kesah ngan semua benda yang babah cakap. As long as he still supports me walaupun selalu cakap keburukan amek medic, I keep my head held high. Tak pandang belakang dah. I made my decision and that's it. No turning back. Tapi sekarang saya jadi keliru. Can I do this? Am I fit enough to be a good doctor? Can I diagnose correctly? Can I treat the patient the way I'm taught? Can I be like my lecturers who are super awesome? Can I? Bimbang. Keliru. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Rasa macam tak layak. Tengok semorang dah progress but me? Still kat takuk yang lama. Even worse, dah turun beberapa anak tangga. I tried to talk to my close friends abut this. But no help at all....
afi..good luck ek untuk test jpj..hehe
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thanks nekmo!! :D
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