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I miss my old self. I think I'm getting senile day by day. Kekadang spect sendiri pon lupa kat mana. That's not normal. I'm just 21 dammit, kenapa pelupa sangat?? 

And as I'm getting older and older and older, I have this feelings you know. The feelings of loneliness. The feelings of not being able to do things that I really want to do. Is that normal? Why am I being rebellious to my own self? kekadang rasa macam nak gila. Sengal.

Ok stop acting bitchy and do stop all the whining. 

tu je, assalamualaikum

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  1. kay_areJanuary 22, 2011 at 12:39 AM

    21 still muda belia g 2.. so don wori be hepi =)

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  2. asip محمدJanuary 22, 2011 at 1:13 AM

    pasal benda ni.. actually hari2 aku ada benda ni.. dan aku senile? haha.. maybe.. kah3.. fyi im sixteen n im 'old'.. yeah.. sixteen years 'old'.. harap kau paham apa maksud aku kat sini.. oh bukan pasal umur.. ok? :)

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  3. NuRFaLaHJanuary 22, 2011 at 6:44 PM

    kte pun salu rasa mcm tu..
    in a few seconds je da lupa
    what kind of neuronal prob yg kte ade pun xtaula..

    sometimes rasa sedih sbb jadi mcm tu tp taktau mcame to make it better

    *sory tetibe buat sharing experience kt sini..xpe kan dear?^^

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  4. Afifah AzmiJanuary 22, 2011 at 7:26 PM

    kay_are- 21 da boleh dikira tua :p

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  5. Afifah AzmiJanuary 22, 2011 at 7:27 PM

    asip- paham kot~ :D tq

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  6. Afifah AzmiJanuary 22, 2011 at 7:28 PM

    feeyah- its ok. tmpt ni open for discussion. *hugs*

    agk r..kte pon sama. sedih. sobs. agknya kena kurangkan makan KFC kot. haha

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