I wonder what had gotten into me before when I used to fight so strong just to be in this course. Babah agak tak suka saya amek course ni. Babah cakap, "You'll have no life." and "Once you step in that field, its equal to learn throughout ur whole life". Tapi saya yang dulu tak kesah ngan semua benda yang babah cakap. As long as he still supports me walaupun selalu cakap keburukan amek medic, I keep my head held high. Tak pandang belakang dah. I made my decision and that's it. No turning back. Tapi sekarang saya jadi keliru. Can I do this? Am I fit enough to be a good doctor? Can I diagnose correctly? Can I treat the patient the way I'm taught? Can I be like my lecturers who are super awesome? Can I? Bimbang. Keliru. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Rasa macam tak layak. Tengok semorang dah progress but me? Still kat takuk yang lama. Even worse, dah turun beberapa anak tangga. I tried to talk to my close friends abut this. But no help at all....
ehem3.. mana entry cuti? hihihi
ReplyDeleteseriously that entry was never meant to be published. SCREW ME.
ReplyDeleteserius? afi.. hidup blogger mmg kena tegar siket kena troll.. biasalah tu.. kau terasa ke? aku rasa entri cuti tu tak perlu delete kot.. menarik.. itukan luahan hati kau.. so ikut suka hati kaulah.. takde siapa boleh lawan.. serius ni..
ReplyDeletebtw.. sorry
ReplyDeletehaha. lol. aku tulis ntuk ak sorang je baca la. haha. sebab tu aku simpan balik ntuk aku baca sorang2 je. itu TERpublish namanya :D
ReplyDeletemanede terasa weh. ape ko cakap tu betul tapi ko blaja kat o.c lainla. aku ni ha, kat mesia je pon. :D