Past Tense

Am seriously in need to talk to someone. Talk mean, talk. As in talk talk. Macam mother-daughter punye conversation. Wuuu. Missing my parents so much. Rasa cam nak borak laju laju, lama lama n lama lamaaaaaaaaaaa ngan mama. Maybe perlu buat temujanji dengan kaunselor. Aaaaa.  Atau mungkin aku boleh pegi jenguk makcik matchmaker tu. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Utara - Selatan Hwy,,Malaysia

Not giving up. Am just tired. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Bukit Tinggi,Masjid Tanah,Malaysia

Exhauuussted. Dear self, please dont get sick. I slept for at least 12 hours yesterday. Maybe that was the side effect of the NSAID and beta blocker I took but still, dear self you need to get used to the exhaustion feelings and the workload. Jebal. How i wish i can go to spa or sauna and pamper myself. Really in need of full body massage. Sobs - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

"Atypical presentation and atypical symptoms in not so typical patient" "Look for the jagung, not the bulu" -quoted from datuk- "Ok I'm putting some pressure on you fatin, so you will think" "what are the investigations?" "more more more fatin!!" -quoted from Left. Kol. Dr. Ali- Learn fatin learn. Ps: thanks for d video epu. Aku baru dang tengok sampai habis arini. Haha. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Masjid Tanah,Malaysia

First week was hectic. Need to fit in the Terendak army style environment and most importantly kena bangun awal dari biasa cos need to be at hospital before ward round. Ward found tu lambat je sebenarnye but need to update patients' condition before di bahan oleh specialist. Sobs. But overall specialists kat sini sangat sporting. Superr cool. My very first week and very first patient for my 3 members team passed away already. It was depressing to be able to see the progression of dying process. Just ignore the depressing language. Agak terkilan jugak sebab tak de kat sebelah beliau waktu beliau menghembuskan nafas terakhir. Haih. Overall working at the hospital is like going to waterpark and do fun and interesting things, tried to solve and investigate everything walaupun diakui agak tiring. Tapi yang paling manis, aku dah makin appreciate things and people around me. Thats the best part. Bila dah kerja kat sini I realize things in TV do happen in real life. Heheh. Sounds ...

" So now I understand why they always wear crumple clothes. Me too will choose to eat and sleep, over a nice ironed attire. " - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

I need your prayers for my parents. Semoga mama babah fatin afifah azmi selamat pergi selamat pulang dan beroleh haji mabrur. Amiin. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

" Sesape yang suke bergurau kasar kasar sama je macam menyot. Eh, monyet. " - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Sungai Udang,Malaysia

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Cyber Height,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

''Waddehel. Rasa cam nak mencarut kat muka dia. Nak tumbuk kuat kuat. Langgar lari pon sounds great. Arghhh. Ingat diri bagus sangatlah tu. Waddehel lagi skali. Dem.'' This is what orang yang tak awesome slalu cakap kat orang awesome. Shame on you. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Cyber Height,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

People say '' U'll think of person close to you whenever you are crying, sad or hurting'' but how come there's no one in my mind? Yeah. People lied. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Cyber Height,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Cyber Height,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

The stressing and tiring posting just ended. Now comes the more stressing and more tiring posting ahead. Yarhh. But I know somehow I will enjoy this one so much. (smirking) After dah habis viva on wednesday, bermulalah segala aktiviti mereleasekan stress. Rabu malam just stay at Nilai anddd makan tidor andd watched Running Man. You guys should add Running Man in the list if you are serious in finding activities to release stress. And then on Thursday, off we went to Mid. I did the best hang out things ever done with a bestfriend, ngee. Window shopping (wajib) and makan and makan and makan. 3 kali kitorang makan ok. Tak taulah mana pergi semua makanan tu tapi yang pasti kitorang spent most of our money on food. Firstly makan makanan korea at Ko Hyang Restaurant yang dijamin halal then pegi Carls Jr and theeenn pegi Freshfromfarm (kot) for dinner. Selain berwindow shopping dan makan, kitorang sebenarnya sedang berlatih untuk menghadapi hari hari ward round yang digembar gemburkan sangat ...

I may sound materialistic but, somehow money CAN buy happiness. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Alamanda,Putrajaya,Malaysia

Seeing him reminds me of him. Sigh. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Maklumat,Serdang,Malaysia

Years back I thought it would be great to be a doctor. Studying medicine. I thought it will be cool to investigate and diagnose the sick people. I thought life would be much easier if I just spend my five years of age studying. Now it seems that the thoughts back then are not that accurate. Sigh. When I see half, no, almost all my friends are graduating and some of them already work for years, I am so freaking jealous. Not to mention to those who are already married or getting married, damn, they have such a perfect life. One of my friends already have two kids and me?? Aah. Chincha. I hope I am still able to get pregnant by the time I am married. And that's just not it. I'm emotionally not able to handle all the stress from the hospital. Not at all. I need to train myself to be emotion Less. No, stronger is a better word I guess. Strong enough that I can stand to see kids dying. Strong enough that I won't cry seeing old folks who are sick being abandon by the fami...