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..first week

First week was hectic. Need to fit in the Terendak army style environment and most importantly kena bangun awal dari biasa cos need to be at hospital before ward round. Ward found tu lambat je sebenarnye but need to update patients' condition before di bahan oleh specialist. Sobs. But overall specialists kat sini sangat sporting. Superr cool.

My very first week and very first patient for my 3 members team passed away already. It was depressing to be able to see the progression of dying process. Just ignore the depressing language. Agak terkilan jugak sebab tak de kat sebelah beliau waktu beliau menghembuskan nafas terakhir. Haih.

Overall working at the hospital is like going to waterpark and do fun and interesting things, tried to solve and investigate everything walaupun diakui agak tiring. Tapi yang paling manis, aku dah makin appreciate things and people around me. Thats the best part. Bila dah kerja kat sini I realize things in TV do happen in real life. Heheh. Sounds quite lame kan?

Paling mengguris isi hati bila tengok warga tua yang sakit tapi takde anak yang datang menjenguk. Haih. It's soo depressing. Buat aku marah. Tapi sape la aku nak emo emo bagai.

And there's one patient, not under my surveillance pon but she is quite close to me cos I always tried to be around her. She was admitted because of hypoglycemia but this patient also has diabetis. She has veryy low appetite, maybe thats the side effect of the drug. She refuses to eat and nak pujuk dia makan sama macam suruh budak kecik tolong buat kerja rumah waktu dia tengah main game. Siyes. Siap kena wat perjanjian kahwin bagai just to get her to eat some plain rice. Haha. Actually that patient is like the heart of the ward. Takde beliau senyap je ward tu. Ada beliau riuh rendah ward tu sampaikan staff nurse semua gelakkan kitorang yang melayan beliau.

Being with them made me feel that my life is so blessed. Tapi ni kat terendak lainla. Kalau kat putra tak taula ape jadi. Mungkin rasa inferior nak sorok kepala dalam baju pon ada. Haih. Prof, boleh tak kalau stay kat terendak je?

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