Past Tense

Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Aku tau aku salah. Somehow aku dah melanggar prinsip aku. Afi, get hold of urself please. Bukan sengaja, sumpah semua berlaku diluar jangkaan. Allah, please forgive me. Ini adalah ujian. Mungkin Allah uji aku dengan rasa ini ntuk test whether I am able to protect what I preach. Jangan biar aku lemah, please. Mama. Help me. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Projek aku ngan mama dah on since last 2 days. Penaaat, tapi puas. Hope I can lose weight dengan kerja kerja itu. Walaupun time makan aku telan makanan tak ingat dunia tapi still ada angan angan nak kurus. -.- Dah, sila baca bendalah kat bawah ni. Afi, sila fikir kamu boleh!  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

A good reminder to myself. Heheh. Selalu susah nak bangun awal. Now U and I can see the differences between people who get up early and people who get up late. Tengok flow kehidupan sehari hari and compare to ours. Heheh. Which one are u? ;) So afi! Sila bangun awal!  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

So afi, sila jadi produktif!! Alhamdulillah. Setakat ni aku rasa aku belum buang masa 24 jam sehari dengan  tidur yang melebih or tengok movie or melilau tak tentu pasal or surf internet lama lama. Kalau nak berubah kena slow slow. Sebab aku manusia, so takut susah nak istiqomah. Teehe. InsyaAllah, I will make myself useful to my parents sepanjang cuti ni. Mama babah, u can use me as u wish in this remaining 2 weeks and a half. I will try my best to do everything u need me to do cos I know I didn't really spend much time with u guys sepanjang third year ni. I miss a lot of family events sebab sibuk terkejar ke sana ke mari. So to make it up to you guys I will be a genie in the bottle. Heheh. Just name things u want me to do I will do it. I will insyaAllah! Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Dear hacker. I am seriously too old for all this already. I have nothing to hide. I have nothing valuable in those accounts. Do whatever you want. Hack as much as u want. Change anything u want. Make my blog private, keep deleting my friends at facebook, read my mails. Do it. Go on. Do it. I don't care. I'm too old for this. I don't have much time to care anymore. Do whatever u want. Do as u please. If somehow me acting this way could entertain u, then good for u. Live well. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

I spare some of my time reading the posts I wrote previously. I think I've grown up. Cos most of them made me laugh. :) I am growing up. I have been doing things I never did in my whole life lately. With guidance of course. Though there are flaws here and there but I'm learning. I love you mom. Thanks for always be with me and be my teacher though I am a bit too old for all this. :) Today was awesome. Dapat polish cooking skills yang dah rusty. Aku rasa aku perlu lengkapkan dapur rumah putra dengan segera. So that dapur tu boleh berasap and cooking skills aku tak berkarat karat. Durian. Durian. Durian. mereka kata dan mama kata: if you hold back ur feelings because u afraid of getting hurt, u'll end up hurting anyway. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

 P/S: I don"t care if you have whatever trait or whatever genes. Cos that trait or genes made u, a U. :)  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

I was wandering around, exercise lah kononnya after mengemas bilik. Tetiba one of my friends yang bakal kahwin called. Diorang pergi hospital for thalassemia screening and shockingly both of them are carrier. Aku terkedu, tergamam and tak tahu nak cakap apa instead of "Berserah pada Allah. Doa, tawakkal." Allahuakbar. Besarnya dugaan mu ya Allah. Kalau aku kat tempat beliau aku sendiri pon tak kan tahu apa yang patut aku buat. I know the risk, I know the prognosis and I learnt almost everything about that thalassemia thing. But in the end, I wasn't the one who was comforting her. Cos I know! I wish I don't know so that its easier to say "everything will be just fine". Hurr. Never thought that it will happen to one of my friends. Sahabat, silalah bersabar dan banyakkan doa. And we all will pray hard for you. I really hope she wont accidentally found my blog and read this entry. Then aku teringat kat sorang patient B Thalassemia Major waktu aku postin...

I'm in holiday mode. So got plenty of time to write and do things I want to do with this blog. It's really good to be home. Rasa macam dah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sesangat aku tak balik rumah. God I love home! ^^ But still rasa nak pergi vacation cuma have no idea where to go and most importantly I got no MONEY. Zero zero. Personally I really adore my mom. She is super awesome. Superwoman I must say. I'm not saying this because she is my mom but because I think she deserves the Superwoman tittle. Things that are impossible for me are absolutely possible for her, and there are things that I failed miserably but she managed to do it all alone. How cool is that? Hurr. I hope I got at least 50% of that Superwoman genetic. Seriously I'm praying hard for that trait. Esok kami bakal ditinggalkan ibu bapa kerana ibu bapa akan ke Kuala Lumpur atas urusan pekerjaan. Weheheh. Habislah kamuorang adik adik. Akanku membuli kalian. MUAHAHA. Oh well, I'm going...

Exams. And all the things goin on. With all the side works. And new house decor thingies. Plus holiday plans. Hurrr. I'm so distracted. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

My eating habit seems to be out of norm these days. I kept skipping breakfast and lunch .... as well as dinner. Bukan sebab diet tapi sebab letih so takde selera. And the result was me eating fried noodle, or maggi or whatever heavy meals at 12 am. *Is 12 am considered supper?* Ha. Way to go afi way to go. Peningla weighing scale tu nanti. I'm loving our house now. Sejuk. Walaupun jiran atas tengah jerit jerit gaya tengok bola or memang tengah tengok Bola but that doesn't bother me much. I'm appreciating the smell of the rain and cold breeze coming thru the windows and the sounds of cars and kids running here and there. Just like home. I like this feeling. Mama babah macam bimbang dengan keadaan aku skarang. Mom kept saying "Giveurself chance, give them chance. U have to change or u'll be alone forever. There are boundaries I know, but u too have to make effort. It takes two to whisper quietly. Ok love?" Hurrr. I am really sorry that I am being so ol...

Goodbye Manjung. I wish I'll miss u but for now I think I won't.  Except for all the good things that happened here, I don't think I'll remember u well. Cos u make me so dry and insomniac. Hurr.  And one step closer to final year .. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad