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..long long day

Yesterday was a long day for me, for us. We set off to main campus at about 7:15 am so that we wouldn't be trapped in the traffic jam but unlucky us, we did trap in traffic jam. -.- Tak sangka Putrajaya boleh jadi se meriah ini. Had a long but quite fun workshop with our beloved Prof Rashid on EBM still, and then we decided to stay at campus to study and do some group discussion which ended up reading about 20++ slides only. At least we tried. Otak penat, badan pon penat. 

The best thing about yesterday was the Iftar and tarawikh with beloved friends at main campus. Allah. Rasa rindu dengan ukhwah zaman first year dulu menebal. Kalau dulu boleh dikatakan hari hari kitorang pergi iftar kat campus dengan bas, sanggup jalan kaki balik rumah after tarawikh kalau dah ketinggalan bas. That was us in first year. First year yang bersemangat, first year yang rajin, dan first year yang kental. Entah kenapa  kudrat semakin berkurang. Oh .... maybe age is the factor. 

that's us 3 years back

As I reflected upon myself last night, I think myself now should really be myself at first year. The stronger version of afi. Way to go first year afi, way to go. We got home at almost 11 o'clock at night. Dengan parking yang sangat jauh which was few blocks away from our house, I was walking with my eyes half opened. Hurr. Penatnya ya Allah. I don't know what would I be if I did not have my sahur the night before. Thanks to those who willingly woke me up from my deep sleep, tq so much :)

And today was a long day too. I was tired by the post effect of yesterday, you bet. Tidur dengan begitu lena sampai tak mimpi apa apa. Bangun sahur dengan mata separuh terbuka, made my routine sahur-meal which is egg sandwich, minum air bergelas gelas dan tidur. Bangun solat subuh dan tidur lagi. Later did I know, I was the one who should present the CA. Herh. You would have guess the outcome right. I wonder where did I left my brain back then. Terasa usaha seminggu begitu sia-sia. Sigh. Maybe I should register myself to some kind of summer camp which trained people how to do presentation brain-less. Maybe.

Tomorrow is the second assessment and I have the feelings that it would be one of the worse days of EBM.  


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Permudahkan esok ya Allah. Permudahkan. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum
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