Past Tense

When your other half is feeling down, you have no choice other than being strong. And I like being strong. Make me realise how much I wanted to do this. I really love my job. Alhamdulillah. This posting really make me love writing and thinking about patients more than my sleep. That is new. The on call rotation and all. Honestly I think I spent more time at the ward and labour room rather than my own room. And this week je dah 3-4 kali mimpi sambut baby dalam tidur. My god. Takde tempat lain dah kot roh aku nak merayau, labour room jugak yang dia pegi. See how much I love O&G HAHA. But lack of sleep makes me fat. And lack of sleep makes me love working more. And being sleep deprived makes me addicted to caffeine, which is not so good. And less time spent sleeping makes me spent more leisure time doing other things than rest, like what I am doing now. I should probably go to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a longggggggg day. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Tengok jam, pukul 11.30 pm. Me: I'm too tired I'm gonna sleep early tonight. Baring sat, pejam mata. Brain: oi, baju tak sidai lagi. Bangun sidai baju. Baring, pejam mata. Brain: oi, scrub belum iron. Bangun iron scrub. Baring, pejam mata. Brain: oi, mane notes O&G tu pegi eah? *scan satu2 ruang rumah* Bangun cari notes. Baring, pejam mata. Brain: oi, ape aim hidup besok? And its 1 am already. Screw sleeping early, thanks to brainy. =.=" - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Jalan Presint 9B/2 A,Dengkil,Malaysia

Encik Tuan dah tido I am bored and bloated and I can't sleep. I miss typing nonsense here, lol. Ah. So today during teaching session I kinda capture a mistreated patient. Yeah. That spells right. Mistreated patient.  Investigation result for wound swab documented shows that she has gram negative organism growth but she was and is still given antibiotic which covers more on gram positive. So, what should I do?! No its not that easy. That hospital is a big hospital and we are like parasites, hanging around so they will let us use their patients for learning. If we mess with them, there is high chance we might not get the privilege anymore.  And who to blame? Agaiiin. Doctors. Ohh I hate to say this but yeah, that is actually the duty of a house officer. READ the investigation result and REVISE the treatment.  When I encountered this kinda situation, I am scared. I don't know whether I am competent enough to treat my future patients. And what if me myself mistreat a patient?...

Dulu waktu zaman remaja, aku suka jewelries. Aku suka nak pakai gelang, nak pakai cincin. Skarang pon suka je pakai gelang but cincin? No. Not the ring. The Ring, cite tu sumpah scary. Mengigau aku lepas tengok cite tu. Okey berbalik kepada cincin itu. Dulu aku suke nak pakai sebab aku rasa macam, macam best. Macam, dewasa. Tapi bila dah masuk umur 20 an, I realize a ring is not just a ring. A finger with a ring means a person with a huge commitment. Bila korang tengok seorang perempuan or lelaki pakai cincin, what is the first thought that comes to your mind? As for me, aku akan fikir dia ni laki orang tak pon bini orang tak pon tunangan orang or least in the hierarchy is girlfren or boyfren orang. Betul tak? So I kinda implement the idea of a ring is a symbol to a relationship sebab tu aku jadi tak selesa bila pakai cincin. Rasa macam eh nanti takde la orang nak dekat dengan aku sebab fikir aku ni bini orang, tihehehe.  Eh lagipun kan, bila pakai cincin susah arrr nak pr...

Hai. Hai. Macam nak lempang je kan duk hai hai banyak banyak kali. Sebenarnye rindu nak menulis tapi sebab dah ada favourite person nak di luahkan kemerepekkan so I guess better gunakan yang lagi mudah, jimat masa dan pantas kan? Muehehe. Best tengok colleagues experience pregnancy. Tapi aku rasa aku tak mampu. Sebab tu Allah tetapkan begini perjalanan hidup aku, cewah. Final year ni buat otak aku makin senget. Rasa makin kecut pon ade gak. Tulang ni rase macam dah rapuh benor. Jangan dapat osteoperosis di waktu muda dah la. Malam malam asyik ada wheezing, macam lullaby sebelum tido dah lagaknya. Ape lagi nak buat ni? Habuk semua dah clear and sebenarnye bilik aku memang licin berkilat takde habuk pon ecececeh, semua triggers dah avoid tapi stil, hmm. Berat pon mencanak naik because of youuuu steroiiddd. Becausee of youuu. Berat, have mercy on me. Sobs. Nak bmi cantik puh leaseee. Hah. Skarang posting kanak kanak. Tolonglah hari hari plot growth chart. Tolong. Please. Haih. Awak. Cepat...

Kalau inilah rewardnye, aku tak kisah hari hari kena balik rumah pukul 11 malam. Tak kisah hari hari terkejar sana sini. Tak kisah hari hari berdoa semoga ada rezeki bukak puasa depan mata, ok yang ni agak melampau tapi serius, kesempitan masa! 4 jam itu hilangkan semua penat satu minggu. Semua. Kalau inilah hadiahnya, hari hari busy pon takpe. InshaaAllah aku terima. :) - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Lebuhraya Damansara Puchong,Dengkil,Malaysia

Warning : Sesiapa yang elergik cheese tidak digalakkan baca entri ini cos this is really cheesyyy. My favourite food kalau pegi pasar malam P2 are ayam golek and this jacket potato. Kalau ade konfem beli sebab sedap and senang boleh simpan dalam freezer, masuk microwave 3 menet, and thats the dinner that I'll have for 2-3 days. Senang hidup takyah masak. I pledged myself nak blaja masak bendalah berdua tu tapi yang ni je jadi.  So the ingredients are 5 potatoes (yang sesuai dibakar) 1/2 cup cream cheese 1/2 cup butter 1 tbs black pepper (I used approximately 3 tbs. Hantu black pepper okey sila memahami) chicken breast/ minced beef 1 celery green onions 2 cloves of garlic salt parmesan or any cheese you like And the steps are First step is to bake the potatoes at 200c for approximately 30-40 mins. Jangan lupa cucuk ngan garpu sket potato tu semua so that senang masak. Sementara potatoes to masak, sila gorengkan garlic, ayam, celery yang dipoto...