Past Tense

Surrounded by my family is the best therapy for excessive stress. Aku boleh nangis boleh moody boleh diam boleh marah sesuka hati. Ngiahahah. Sian capikah. Kejap kejap aku tarik rambut dia kejap kejap aku tarik jari dia jap lagi tarik hidung. Semua kena tarik. Tulah "panjang" sangat. Padan muka. Babah duk interview orang skarang ni. Dalam hati teringin jugak nak cakap kalau ada lelaki baik yang babah berkenan sudilah kiranya dilamarkan beliau untuk saya. Ngiahahaha. Besok last day babah kat sini and since last sunday aku menempel sekali kat hotel. Mama rajin masak bila duk hotel. Why? Sebab dah takde benda lain yang menarik untuk dibuat. Ngehngeh. Best woo dapat makan masakan ibu. Bukan senang tu.. :,) Mama kata mama tak kisah kalau aku bercinta. And I was like, hehh?? She might have discovered something weird in my handphone oh my oh my apekah ituu?? No worries mom, sploh taun lagi kot aku sempat bercintan bagai. Tak bercinta pon dah stress tahap tertinggi kalau ber...

Gila apa buat loji nuklear kat kawasan tu? What the hell man! Haih. Rimaslah aku dengan masalah negara  ni. Since skarang mood stress and stress semua meningkat ningkat tak reti nak turun makanya inferens yang ikut formula semakin semakin jika maka tu berbunyi : Semakin tinggi tahap stress semakin bertambah berat badan. Nice one. Aku rasa kalau cikgu Sains aku baca sure beliau bangga ada anak murid cam aku. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Dan kau, buat aku terfikirkan sesuatu. Betul ke aku tak tau apa itu ITU? Betulke aku ni kayu? Tak. Aku tau apa itu ITU. Bukti? I'm tachycardic whenever I listen to these songs. Jangan buat buat tau kalau kau sebenarnya, TAK TAHU. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Hidup ni ada ups and downs nye. Bila selalu sangat up, manusia lupa. Nama pon manusia kan. Makhluk pelupa paling nyata. Sebab tu Allah ciptakan down down down itu. Sesungguhnya segala downs yang dialami akan membuatkan manusia makin dekat dengan Dia dan makin hargai jaman jaman up. Oh. Itulah dunia. Hospital is my playground. Tak sabar nak cubit pipi patients esok. Ward lain ade?? :D Nah. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Cyberjaya,Malaysia

Helllloooo. Drive je pon kann?? Lain kali drive sendiri. Tengok SEDAP ke tak. Drive for 3 hours ++ kat jalan kampung berlubang lubang plus jalan bengkang bengkok. Silalah try. Oh God I am running out of patience already. Location: Lingkaran Putrajaya,Putrajaya,Malaysia

I have a pet now. A hamster. A tiny white hamster. Fadd kasi aku salah seekor dari hamsters beliau yang banyak itu semalam. Bukan sebab beliau tak sayang Bernie tapi sebab Bernie sekor je hamster jantan and Fad taknak dorng membiak biak so she decided to make me as Bernie's stepmother. Huehueh. At first I thought that I am ok with hamsters. Chill lah hamster je pon. Kecik putih comel gebu. Tapi tu dululah. Skarang muka Bernie pon aku geli nak tengok. Kesian Bernie kena tinggal sorang sorang kat luar. Ini semua sebab kejadian beliau melepaskan diri dari aquarium kecik tu and played hide and seek with me for about an hour dalam bilik kecik ni, sumpah aku GELIIII. Rasa nak termenangis pon ada waktu aku terpaksa pegang badan Bernie yang kecik itu and I could feel his heartbeat!! Ergh. He's so tiny but he makes me feel sooo geliii amaaat. After putting him back in his home aku rasa cam nak termuntah. Tak lalu makan dah. Sobs. How am I going to face you Bernie?? Sobs. Bernie...

Beberapa hari lepas aku amek third jab for hep B. Waktu kena cucuk tu yeah yeah saya heroin malaya memang adalah tidak menyakitkan walau sedikitpun tapi after 2 jam weehu weehu kebasnye tanganku. Serius menyengalkan mencucuk cucuk dan terkebas kebas. Drive pon guna sebelah tangan je. Sakit woo. Betul tak tipuu. So sesape yang belum kena third jab sila bersiap sedia ye, mentally and physically. :) Oh today I am a housewife. Eh silap. Housemaid! Rumah yang kitorang baru pindah masuk ni adalah sangat mengotorkan. Banyak debu oh. So untuk mengelakkan diri sendiri mendapat pelbagai jenis penyakit dikemudian hari, aku mengexposekan diri sendiri dengan tons of debu and tons of fungi harini. Dan menggunakan tangan kiri yang di'jab' itu dengan sewenang wenangnya. Post-op? Ohh sakitnye oh mengahnye! Harap harap selsema ni selsema biasa bukan selsema burung ke apa. Sobs. Kesian kasut pepel beriben tu. Tadi waktu membeli belah barang keperluan dapur aku tak terperasan kasut yang a...

Dia: who's ur fav kpop band and korean artist? Aku: DBSK and yunho Dia: lama betul ko minat diorang!! Aku: so what? Haha. They are cool. I like yunho. His dance moves are super duper cool Dia: I like *beeep* better. Aku: video clip dorang macam budak budak. Choreography ntah pape sket. Heheh Dia: eleh. I like *beeeep*. He's way handsomeER than yunho. Aku: Too much makeup n too much of plastic surgery. Not natural. Eeekkk. Dia: what about *beeep*? He's kinda cute Aku: err. Tak kenal Dia: ok ok. What about this one *beeep* Aku: have no idea Dia: so frustrating la cakap ngan ko nih! Ok what about *beeep*. His acting is a must watch Aku: eeekk. Who the hell is that? Dia: seriously? go marry ur Yunho. Hahah. Sorry. Once aku dah suka, aku suka dia sorang je. Be it artist, be it a band, tempat makan pun sama. Once aku dah suka, insyaAllah selamanya aku suka. ;) But eh eh, I dont wanna marry yunho. He's not my type ;) - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Exit B15,Cyb...

Dah seminggu aku dalam mood bayi. Heheh. Mane mane aku pegi dalam otak aku mesti de image babies kat hpj tu. Aku rasa minggu ni adalah minggu yang paling bermakna sepanjang aku bergelar medical student. Tak pernah aku rasa bersemangat macam minggu ni. Weehu. I tell you what, paeds posting shall be the best posting in list. I just love those tiny lil creatures. Hari hari kat ward asik senyum je, sampai naik lenguh pipi aku ni. Huehue. I seriously in love with them! And my very first patient for this posting is hafiz, a veryyy cute lil baby who got meningitis. Poor him. Please pray that nothing will go wrong and his condition will be better as days go on. He's such an .. angel. Syndrome terbaru contracting us now is Toys Syndrome. Asal nampak toys yang cute je terus terbeli. Terbeli ok terbeli. Dengan alasan? "They are for the babies! They will love them!" heheh. Alasan je lebih. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Exit Persiaran Rimba Per...

Dah lama aku diam. Tapi diam tak bermaksud aku lupa. :) - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Persiaran Rimba Permai,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

Guess what, Triple A was my examiner. Disebabkan Triple A ialah Triple A makanya nervous itu adalah melebih lebih. Sirius nervous yang amat sampai rasa cam nak termuntah. Palpitation sepanjang exam. First pro dulu pon takdelah se'severe' ni aku punya perasaan nervous. Brain macam tak cukup oksigen dah. Haih. Oh jangan tanya "how's ur performance" kerana aku akan jawab, "I acted like a badut sarkas bodoh yang tak tau apa apa" . =..=" But then I didnt feel THAT bad cos I know I tried my best. Walaupun aku ada buat kesalah kesalah besar or huge major mistakes yang boleh dikenakan penalti dengan dahsyatnya but still, aku takdelah macam kecewa tahap nak bunuh diri waktu dah habis exam tu. Cuma adela terjerit jerit sket dalam kereta waktu drive balik rumah cos sakit hati bila tetiba je segala jawapan yang diperlukan waktu exam muncul dalam kepala right after I walked out from the ward. Sobs. Walaupun long case exam agak horror tapi feedback sessi...

Aihh. Takboleh tido. Semua sebab exam esok. Asal tutup mata terbayang kaki gangrene. Pusing kiri terbayang breast ca. Pusing kanan terbayang thyroid. Gosh. I seriously need to calm down and get some sleep. But me cannot sleep? How meh how mehhh?? Semoga Allah permudahkan. Doakan doakan doakan! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location: Exit Persiaran Rimba Permai,Cyberjaya,Malaysia

Esok kitorang berlima (awa, me, bell, hzm, n winny) exam. Long case exam. 1. Abdomen 2. Breast 3. Neck Ntah case apelah kitorang dapat. Sobs. Pray for us please? Thank you. Thats us. Kegilaan melampau akibat kebosanan, kekenyangan dan juga kemengantukkan di kepetangan. Oh nervoussss!! Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Lately I've been thinking a lot about marriage because someone close to me is getting married. Well actually not really getting married but sorta getting married. Know what I mean??? Ok whatever. Sometimes I wonder, adeke orang dalam dunia ni kawen masa blaja but then live seperately. Perempuan tinggal kat hostel perempuan and lelaki tinggal kat hostel lelaki. Whenever you are damn bored or alone and lonely, you can easily call your spouse to accompany you. Do whatever pasangan belum kahwin do? Ada rasa rindu rindu, jeles jeles and nikmat berdating. Tapi semua tu dilakukan after kahwin bila dah halal. Is that possible? Is that sane?? And most importantly are we allowed to do that?? Actually kan for me, as I think about it, I kinda like that idea ( please note that I am wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too far from marriage and stuffs like that ok ) cos eventually you got to feel the feelings every other couples did. Secara sejujurnya I am really AGAINST the idea of coupling thingy. Though ...

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Something is going on at campus today but I have no idea what it is. People who dressed very properly keep going in and out and that distracts me a bit. Ohh by the way, there is a garden inside CUCMS now. Not that greenly garden but its called a garden. Cantik. Lots of information about our college are pasted there. To CUCMSians, silalah merajinkan diri balik ke kampus barang sesekali ye. Heheh. When I am at campus my brain works a lil bit harder than when I am in my room. I got to finish watching couple of EDUCATIONAL *I'm trying hard to emphasis the word educational ok* videos for long case exam and did some notes but being all alone here make it soooooo damn bored. I talked to the wall. Yes I did, few seconds ago. Bosanlah! And the fact that I'm stuck here all alone, I kinda miss my bestfriends. Only now I have the guts to admit that they are my bestfriends. Sebelum ni bukannye tak berani tapi my past make me sick of the word bestfriend. But they just healed all of...

Entah kenapa aku boleh terfikir nak wujudkan belog ni bertahun tahun tahun yang lepas. Semua benda aku tulis kat sini bukannye info penting pon. Most of it were rambles and random thoughts. Banyak masa terbuang kan? Kenapa aku tak mengadu kat Dia je. Kenapa nak tulis kat sini. Haih. Tapi sekarang macam dah terlambat jugaklah untuk aku insaf. Aku dah teraddict sangat dengan blog. Kekadang lagi suka tulis dari cakap. Sebab tu aku lagi suka sms daripada kol kol ni. Lol. Ada kaitan ke? Heheh. Tapppppiiiii in some circumstances yang memerlukan aku menaip sms dengan banyaknya maka, aku lebih suka guna khidmat mulut. Cakap cakap dan cakap. Bila tengok orang post pasal kawen, jemput pergi majlis walimah hati aku terus ingat mama. Agaknya sebab tulah mama dah 'ada bunyi' pasal aku kot. Heheh. Sabar lah ma. Tunggulah bila aku dah jumpa jodoh aku. Sabar ye ma, sabar ye diri sendiri. Skarang adik aku abam tu tak habis habis post pasal kawen kat fesbuk. Asal borak ngan aku je mesti ada...