Past Tense

Everyone has gone to deep sleep except for me. Am sleepy but insomniac. Trying to reach babah's cellphone but I think he's sleeping also. Babah must be really tired for driving alone. All this while mama ai yang setia slalu ikut babah pegi outstation so they kinda take turns to drive. But today, I mean this time mama needs to be at home for there's so much things that need to be settled before we move out and plus, I have the JPJ test this tuesday. Pray for my success dear friends. I'm dying for that piece of paper which people used to call a DRIVING LICENCE. Hurm. God I miss babah already. Why does he needs to be in KL this week?? Why not next week? Hergh. Benci benci.  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

just love the sync. Enjoy.

Not in the mood to do anything. I'm soo gonna miss babah. Isk. Reflection for today: Saya sedar saya siapa. Saya tak hebat berfashion. Saya tak hebat bershopping. I know nothing about branded stuffs. Jimmy Choo, Michelle yeoh and all those labels. Branded perfume which costs people thousand dollars and yes I admit that I know nothing about cosmetics. They are all alien to me. Its ok.  Saya adalah memalukan. Saya adalah kekampungan. Taste saya adalah low. And so,  dont brag about me in front of the high class friends. Dont have to invite me to any of the conversations with the super awesome friends. Stupid me I try to put up, search the net just to find out things they talked about. So stupid girl, this is what you get for being such a fool. Its ok. Saya memang kampung. And most of all, I like to be called budak kampung. ONLY GREAT MINDS CAN AFFORD SIMPLE STYLE. Notabadakair: thank you. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

I need to reschedule everything. EVERYTHING. This holiday isn't really holiday but a break where I need to change my mind set, change my bad habits and get back to my sense as a medical student. What I mean by get back to my sense is I need to rethink of the reasons why I choose medicine in the first place. I need to polish my dream and make it looks like its a brand new. I need to rethink of whats the priority in my life right now. Saya perlu cuba menerima kekurangan hidup sebagai med student dan cuba survive dengan kekurangan kekurangan itu. How do I survive? THINK. Thats why I need to THINK. Think and think and think sampai tertido. Wakaka. Wey wey ini entri sirius so, act serious. Err. Need to revise the notes, but when do I start?  With all the distractions (TV, katil yang normal, PS, katil lagi dan katil dan katil) how do I study? Public Library? Dah 10 tahun tak masuk library kat dungun ni. Library kat rumah? Man, barang penuh sangat yang amat teramat kat dalam itu. M...

hehehe..thanks nenek moden~ :D Got questions? Spill it out :)

Oh well, now I'm home. For a week. ONLY. I wish I can stay longer cause there's no place like HOME!!!  The indulgent of being home make me a HOME ADDICT. Kahkah. Home addict? Ada eh word cenggitu? Eh eh , sukati ai la nak tulis pape pon, ini belog sape? Belog aii kann sama sekali bukan belog yuuu. Yielk yielk yielk. Ok ok be sirius afi be sirius.  And so, this entry goes to you cik kucengkatumahatok. Whyyyyyy onnnnnnn eartthh ddiiddddddddd yoouuuuuuu dooooooooo thaaaaaattttttt????? *baca dengan 6 harakat for each word ye kawan kawan* What? Do you think I'm your bebola benang hah..? Iskkk. Oh, common girl. You know me well. SAYA KECEWA. KUCIWA. KECIWA. KACIWA. KACUWA!!! Takpelah. Silalah bersuka ria. Enjoy your life. Love your family. BUT, dont blame me if something happen to your kitten. Bye. Notabadakair: I thought you were different but you are just the same. Takpelah. Saya REDHO. Pergii maiin jauuh jauuh.  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Dear baby belog yang gedik, just be patient and listen to me rambling about OSCE.  Physical examination was HELL. I was so nervous to see the PATIENT. Allah did answer my prayer. PATIENT sangat memberi kerjasama. Oh. And the Doctor who assessed me was super awesome. He kept smiling which of course helped me to get back to my sense. Thank you doctor. And the second station was HELL no 2 as it went quite well compared to physical examination station. But of course, being an AFI is not easy. Kahkah. Guess what, the whole conversation was in Malay except for self introduction!! I memorize the script and also the keywords in English, yo. So what did you expect the situation was, yo? I over sweat demmit. There, I spent quite some time trying to figure out on how to translate everything in Malay soon after I realize the patient was so not comfortable with english. Nasib baik lecturer yang assess saya waktu tuh adalah Dr Rosni, my ex mentor. I noticed she was like tahan gelak when I kin...

Arghh. Meeeennnngggggaaaaaannnnttttuuuuuukkkkkk.  Oh yes, got OSCE tomorrow. Pray for me dear friends!   Notabadakair 1: Am hoping that the simulated patient will give me full cooperation. Isskk.  Notabadakair 2: What was the first simulated patient's name ye? Was it Loqman? Aiman? What MAN eh?   Notabadakair 3: Remember to bring ur stet afi!! Nail that in mind. NAIL THAT! Notabadakair 4: Nothing impossible. Wah, banyaknya notabadakair. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Officially SORRY. I'll behave. PROMISE. Sila jangan tarik title anak sedara solehah itu~  Yielk yielk yielk *gelak cara goofy* Habislah saya. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

hey there friend! I'm doing just fine. Better than ever. :D thanks! Got questions? Spill it out :)

Woho tetiba rasa terlebih semangat bila tengok traffic malam ini.  Thanks to Incik Sarip for promoting my blog. Tapi dont expect any upah from me heh.  Nak upah sila balik melesia. Notabadakair 1:  tak faham betulla jiran atas ni. Malam malam macam ni la dorang start punggah barang, seret lemari, ketuk ketuk dinding. Woih, its freaking 1:19 am tak reti reti ke orang nak tido huh?? Aaa. Stress. Excuse my language. Hilang kesopanan ai. Selamat malam.  Notabadakair 2: to my cousin yang tak suka cite korea (yeke tak suke? kalau suke sila cakap ye) sila bagi cicit kat tokki cepatcepat eh. Lalalala Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Frank A. Clark: “ If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere. ” Fatin Afifah: "Obstacle is like onion. They make you cry yet spice up ur life" *gamba curik kat flickr* dia punya quote mantap. Saya punya quote pon best jugak~ kehkeh. Poyos nak wat quote sendiri but who cares? Need I to remind you? This is My Belog. U dont like it, step out of it. Wakaka.

I ramble a lot. When I say A LOT it means A LOT. Get me? Kahkah. Pardon? Did you just ask why is that ? Well what do you think?  Thats the effect of sympathetic reaction being turned on. My, THIS IS SERIOUS. Notabadakair 1: Don't you know how to respect patients? Common, that's so not ethical.  Notabadakair 2: Aha, need to watch my words. Got Maksu in the house. Habislah Maksu report kat mama kalau saya bermaki makian kat sini. Muahaha. ^^ Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

I think I need Imigran more than Caffox. Had a mild migraine attack last night and took Caffox to prevent the full blow but it doesn't seem to work on me. The mild attack was totally gone after I took it but to my surprise the throbbing pain started and got worse this morning. I sleepwalked to the toilet at about 4 am and I only managed to open my eyes after like 20 minutes of standing in the bathroom with part of my head sunk in the sink. Luckily it was not the toilet bowl or else I'll be puking everything out of me. Is that a sign that I'm addicted to Imigran?  Or is that a sign that I need to get the painkiller shot? Whatever it is, I just hope that my body will be functioning normally before tomorrow because I really need to focus on my study for finals. Issk. And uh, my right hand is numb and I cant feel my right leg. *Daa, I'm typing with my left hand ONLY which takes me like hours to finish a paragraph.* Try to poke my leg with a needle and its amazing t...

These PEOPLE and the damn CARS are really pissing me off. Its 3 AM for God sake! deyyy!! I need to sleep!!

Satu entri untuk kamu. Heheh. Tak sangka ada jugak orang menunggu nunggu entri kat belog saya ni. *mode perasan sekejap, wink* Saya menulis untuk release tension. So kalau takde entri tu maknanya saya tak tension sebab saya tak setadi. Keh keh keh. Tapi kekadang sebab tak setadi saya terlebih aktif mempost entri sampah kat belog ni. Err. Okey okey saya tau saya da start merepek.  Hari ini dalam sejarah my migraine attack only last for 3 hours.  Thanks to Caffox. I miss my Imigran. Rasanya saya perlu mengikut saranan dan pendapat Dr Kak Timah *aww* amek prophylaxis for migraine tapi saya malas sebab ubat prophylaxis ni kena telan hari hari plus, saya takut dengan side effects dia. Haisyoo.  But now, saya rasa saya memerlukan prophylaxis pills itu. Hadoi. Kepala oh kepala. Silalah bertahan. Minggu depan cuti. Yeay!! Sila jangan menjeles. Lalalala Notabadakair: sayangku saleha, saya akan shut down mcm laptop selama beberapa jam after I take those drugs. Dont worry be hap...

Saya gumbira. Saya sedih. Saya tension. Saya malas. Saya rajin. Slides sangat banyak. SCTL belum tengok. Baju belum iron. Stress tak tau kena wat yang mana satu. Jeling jam da pukul 1. Ok now I know.  Tidur adalah perlu. Nite everyone! Notabadakair: Saya suka Ickle and Lardee yang comellll. terima kasih kepada pemberi link dan terima kasih kepada mereka mereka yang setuju dengan pendapatan saya bahawa mereka tersangatlah cute I feel like eating them hidup hidup. huh tulaa kau sape suh cute melampau lampau. Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Tengah berkaraoke lagu Say It Isn't So from Gareth Gates. *lagu zaman ai kanak kanak*  Just wanna wish congratulations to my beloved kakak usrah Kak Fatimah dan dengan ini saya dengan officially mengaku bahawa saya sangat jeles dengan anda oh!! Your life is getting perfectER lah wahai Kak Timah.  Beliau dah selamat dapat gelaran Doctor and in few months time, dapat gelaran Puan pulak. Isk. Kegembiraan berganda. Combo!!  Congrates to all my seniors for doing such a great job!! 5 years of struggle akhirnya terbayar. Sila doakan saya berjaya mengikut jejak langkah kamu. ^^ Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

God I hate Rachel from Glee. BIG L FOR RACHEL!! notabadakair: not that i'm watching glee right now, just came across her pic while I was browsing the net. How come people like her so much?? Tak faham. Serius tak faham.

A, B, AB or O?? selsel comel boleh buat corak baju abaikan pensil biru. Tengok slides ape kat belakang tu?? hasil tuaian haematology dah dapat. Bersyukurkah? Berbaloikah? Ummpphh. penyakit dan penyakit Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Tadi ai masuk satu kedai. Kat dalam kedai tuh banyak sesangat benda kilat kilat warna perak bentuk bulat. Mata ai silau sekejap. Then tetiba anak mata tertengok satu makhluk bertahi lalat putih kat tengah tengah muka bulat tulus mulus lagi comel beliau itu. Saliva ai meleleh. Mama sengih sengih. Mama tanya, mau ke? Saya jawab, takpelah. Kang bau mayat. Kakak promoter buat muka pelik plus scary. Kuang3. Jangan risau kak, saya belum pernah bunuh orang. Sikit lagi nak lempang tuh adela tapi tak sempat bunuh pon. Lalalala. Godaan benda alah bulat bertahi lalat putih nan satu itu sangat kuat. Saya usha makhluk bulat lain, tapi otak saya tetap cakap, yang tahi lalat putih nan satu paling cantik. Mama kata, saya dah jatuh cinta pandang pertama. Aish.   Usha punya usha, then kakak promoter cakap "adik nak try ke?" . Oh sangat mempromote ai ok. Adrenalin rush tersangatlah hebat bila pegang cinta pandang pertama uh. Bagai pinang dibelah dua kata akak promoter. Muat muat pulak makhluk ...

Tahniah encik Hitam. Anda telah berjaya melukakan hati kawan saya.  I will NEVER forget you for that.  You give her hopes, she gives you chances.  But in the end, all you do is just hurting her even more.  Kononnya nak jadi pelindung after her parents passed away, hampeh. Bukan penaung namanya begini tapi pengaum. Haih. Lelaki lelaki lelaki. I wonder ada lagi ke lelaki yang boleh dipercayai kat dunia ni. Lelaki yang baik mengalami kadar kepupusan melampau, jadi kaum kaum perempuan semua, silalah besarkan anak lelaki anda dengan sebaiknya so that anak saya nanti terselamat daripada lelaki buaya macam encik Hitam ni. Bertunang. Bagi tempoh ntuk diri sendiri kenal kenal hati budi sebelum kahwin. Alih alih kau keluar dengan perempuan lain. I saw you. But I will never tell her. She's happy, how can I not be happy jugak? Walaupun tindakan budus saya itu akhirnya buat kawan saya makin sakit hati, but I feel like its better for her to know it on her own. Bila...

Inflammations/ Infections of oral cavity this is herpetic stomatitis and the common one, apthous ulcers. I'm very sure almost everyone had this at least once in a lifetime and lastly oral candidiasis.  Interesting right?? Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

Enough!! I want to quit!! :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: quit what?? :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: QUIT SMOKING!! Notabadakair: I don't smoke. I just wish to hear that from smokers WHO ARE RUDE ENOUGH TO SMOKE WHILE I WAS HAVING MY LUNCH. *bukan jari saya* Ok tu je, assalamualaikum

The tittle itself is self explanatory.  Sebulan sekali akan ada waktu perempuan akan jadi moody, selera makan bertambah, suhu badan meningkat, tetiba terharu melampau lampau, sensitif tak ingat, suka bantah cakap orang, suka bom bom orang, suka nak jerit jerit sorang sorang, rajin cuci tandas, terlebih mengelamun dan macam macam perangai pelik yang lain. Sebab apa? Sebab Allah anugerahkan perempuan sakit sebulan sekali. Jadi kawan kawan, silalah jangan jealous apabila sorang perempuan yang agak agak menepati ciri ciri di atas dimaafkan atas perbuatan pelik beliau kerana sakit beliau dah datang. Cuba kalau lelaki yang buat benda alah tu semua, mau dapat penyepak sorang satu kan? Kihkihkih.  notabadakair:  Dia: kenapa korang malu bila cakap pasal mens depan lelaki? Tu benda normal lah. And you are suppose to be proud of yourself to have mens. That means you can produce babies and again, you are normal. So kenapa nak segan segan?? Lelaki ni semua ada mak, kakak, adi...

Dont know why malam ini sangat mengantuk. Malam mood study membara nilah jugak hormone mengantuk melampau lampau. I normally sleep after balik kelas sebab right after masuk rumah menonong masuk bilik solatsolat mandimandi pastu rasa comfycomfy then terjah katil and today macam biasa tidur jugak. Buttttt something wrong somewhere, walaupun da tido tadi but I am still feeling so sleepy siap dizzy lagi sebab tak ikutkan mata yang nak tido sejak maghrib tadi. Argh. Give me a break lah duhai mata. I need to study! Demmit. Ok fine fine, mengalah. Harapan sebelum tulis benda alah ni semua ialah semoga mata makin tak mengantuk bila mengadap blog tapi nampaknya malam ni trick ini tak menjadi. Mata saya sangat degil.  p/s: dear, normally my room tak macam tu hokeh. Malam ini saja. Biasanya kemas dari segi susunan sebab buku pon ai malas nak bukak. wekeke.  Ok tu je, assalamualaikum